Number One, We've Begun

         I just finished Day 1: Chest and Back and Ab Ripper X.  Holy S...I don't know what I was expecting but it was not as hard as what I actually got!!!  It is REALLY difficult.  I couldn't even do most of what they were doing.  I suck at push ups.  Seriously.  I think maybe for the first half of this month I may need to do girl push-ups just so I can actually do SOMETHING. I feel really discouraged.  How am I ever going to get a good body if I can't even do the moves?  However, at the end of the workout I was really sweating and my muscles are weak...so I must have been doing something, at least.  I wrote down my reps, and I will try to match them and increase them over the next 90 days.   
        Then came Ab Ripper X.  I feel even more discouraged about that than I do Chest and Back.  Honestly, I could not do a single thing.  Maybe I don't have the right form, but how on earth do you start lying on the ground and then pull all the way up to touch your toes???  I just fell over every time I tried it!!! I feel really disappointed in myself.  I won't be able to get "ripped" if I just fall over.  After Ab Ripper X I didn't feel tired because I couldn't do any of the moves they did.  Most of the moves were like a sit-up, but like I said, I just fell over time.  I couldn't balance.  I'm not sure what to do about this.  Should I supplement other ab workouts until I build up SOME sort of ability to do what they are doing?  I'm not going to get ripped if I DON'T do what they do, but I'm also not going to get ripped if I CAN'T do what they do.   I think I'll give it half a month -maybe a month.  I'm going to keep trying and keep bringing it!
      Now I'm drinking my Muscle Milk supplement.  I know they say to drink the P90X supplement, but it is EXPENSIVE!! I'm a college kid, here.  Perhaps in my second or even 3rd round of P90X (which would be in the summer) I will drink their supplement and eat their protein bars.  Right now, I'm just going to try to survive in the best way I can.  I must say, though, this Muscle Milk stuff tastes awful!  It just comes in a giant jar in powder form and you mix it into water.  Yuck.  I think it's good for me, though, so I will continue. 
     I think if any one word could sum up day one it would be "Failure;"  however, I'm not going to quit.  I'm going to keep pushing play every day.  I'm sure by the end of 90 days I'll be able to do at least ONE sit-up!