Calm Before the Storm?

     Well, it's September 30th, the day before I start P90X!!!  Right now, I feel very excited and ready to BRING IT!  However, I just took my "before" pictures.  They are TERRIBLE. I truly had no idea I looked that bad.  I'll post them at the end when I post my "afters." I've decided that I'm going to do the Classic Version to start. However, after my first 90 days, I'll probably start again and do the Lean Version. 
      Like I said, at this moment I am pumped and ready to begin.  However, I'm sure that after about a week I will be in total pain and want to quit.  I'm NOT going to quit though.  I'm seriously ready to make a change.
     I read the nutrition guide and it seems great.  I have a couple of fears though.  First, it's going to cost A LOT of money to buy all of that food.  I just don't think I'm up for that.  Secondly, my eating schedule is so off right now because of work and school, I just don't see how I will have time to prepare meals.  So, I'm going to just try to do my best.  The first month calls for lots of protein a day, so I will try to do that.  I know that basically if I just eat healthy I will lose weight and get in better shape, so that's what I'll do.  Perhaps during my next round I'll be able to do a better job of following the nutrition guide.
    I didn't do all the "before" tests, like seeing how many push-ups I can do.  I wanted to, I just don't have the time.  As cool as it would be to know how much I improve in those areas, it really isn't that big of a deal.  Right now, I know I suck.  After 90 days, I hopefully won't suck.  'Nough said.
     I'm going to do everything in my power to press play every day and write about my progress.  Wish me luck!!!

While I Wait

September 23, 2010: I’ve decided I’m going to try to eat healthier until P90X comes in the mail because if I go ahead and start making a habit of eating healthy, it will be easier for me follow the nutritional guide- which I plan to do as much as I can.  I have a few concerns about the nutritional guide: first, I’m worried I won’t be able to cook a lot of the food it calls for because I don’t have an oven- I’ll have to modify the recipes to work with a microwave and a very small fridge.  Secondly, I’m worried that the healthy food will be more expensive and I won’t have enough money to buy what I need.  Hopefully, I’ll be able to figure it all out when I read the guide. I still haven’t told Matthew I ordered it, but it was REALLY hard not to.  I’m not sure I’ll be able to make it 3 months without telling him.  I’m hoping that as the time goes on it will be easier not to tell him, and I’m also hoping that he will compliment my body without even knowing I’m working out.  That would be the best compliment ever.

The Very Beginning

September 22, 2010:  I ordered P90X today.  Mainly, I just feel terrible about myself.  I have no energy- EVER.  I’m really overweight and I have no will power.  So, I’m looking forward to getting started.  Hopefully, I will be able to wake up in the mornings and get with it.  I’m going to try hard not to tell Matthew, my boyfriend, because I feel like he won’t support me. Well, he’ll say he supports me, but he won’t think I can do it.  Well, I CAN do it!!  I hate feeling uncomfortable.  I wear a t shirt every day because I don’t feel like I look good in “cute” clothes. I’m just tired of feeling like this!  Anyways, I’m going to try to post daily about my experience- my thoughts, feelings, etc.  Now, all I have to do is wait about 10 days for it to get here!  I’m excited!!!